wow.. i had to rewrite the post cuz blogger was retarded..
but i just feel stupid. and that. you say that i was all "happy" until i got in contact with her. but maybe it's because you kept me from her all day for 6 hours.. i didn't even get to say goodbye. and she tried to talk to me every half hour.. but you took away my phone. what am i supposed to do? and then i disappoint her because i wanted to at least talk to her a little instead of ignoring.. and asking her to wait for me real quick with a brb.. but i guess that is bad too. sorry for having to help paley. i don't know what to do. can't even satisfy the two of you. i'm just a failure. i think i'm right to hate myself. nothing good i can see. i doubt you read this anymore anyways cuz you probably think i don't post on here anymore. well oh wells. screw me and my life.

p.s. i'm sorry for all those caught in the crossfire. i'm really sorry.