i hate how i have no where to vent... i guess this is why i started posting again. but i really hate how i have to be super careful about posting on fb.. otherwise my parents will see... >.< no privacy at all. stupid emo blog.

wow.. i had to rewrite the post cuz blogger was retarded..
but i just feel stupid. and that. you say that i was all "happy" until i got in contact with her. but maybe it's because you kept me from her all day for 6 hours.. i didn't even get to say goodbye. and she tried to talk to me every half hour.. but you took away my phone. what am i supposed to do? and then i disappoint her because i wanted to at least talk to her a little instead of ignoring.. and asking her to wait for me real quick with a brb.. but i guess that is bad too. sorry for having to help paley. i don't know what to do. can't even satisfy the two of you. i'm just a failure. i think i'm right to hate myself. nothing good i can see. i doubt you read this anymore anyways cuz you probably think i don't post on here anymore. well oh wells. screw me and my life.

p.s. i'm sorry for all those caught in the crossfire. i'm really sorry.

sigh.
hurt by my sister again..
and then you wonder why i'm always so mean to her...
she like.. hates me

hm. well. today was.. thursday :P
my foot was hurting the entire day.. and somehow i managed to "run" the 3 minutes today.
then.. not much.. still looking for the froggy that Micheley gave me..
**IF YOU SEE A GREEN FROG KEYCHAIN WITH A UC BERKELEY SHIRT ON PLEASE GIVE IT TO ME**
i lost it within the hour she gave it to me ._. I'M SORRY :((
well. then.. not much..
oh. didn't make it to the Tracy health thingy
rawr.. i guess i have to find out how to take the college course... >.< i don't wanna do Independent Study..
nothing much.
oh yea.. epically failed my Spanish test.. sorry guys..
TANK MAN in history.. i think that was like.. the only good thing about history today.

then.. more to come?
:D
stay tuned readers ;)
&hearts

well. here's the promised post that i mentioned...
my afternoon / night didn't turn out the way i thought it would.
Johnny called and came to my house for a talk.. (no i wasn't in trouble)
we were just talking about what happened on friday / sunday cuz he was told to go visit some other churches.. so i just filled him in and stuff. 'parently he's speaking for Jesus Club soon i think.. so yea. he stayed for dinner. YOSHINOYA :D (or however you spell it) yeaa. yay. then.. hw.. >.< spent a bit of time doing yucky hw finally finished... tired. so i decided to go rest on bed.. then got up and played sax a bit.. (i still have to put it away >.<) and now i'm blogging.
oh yea.. i did some research on animator thingys.. i think i'm going to fail >.< it looks so hard.....
b;lakdjf;lksdjf why did i choose that!??! >.<

so yeaa..
now i'm just yea.
&hearts
byee

not much.. just another day..
bio was good i guess
trying to install digsby :P
hm. iono.
i just don't want to do hw xD
maybe i'll post again later.

i was looking for viva la vida on youtube today.. and i found this
yea. i thought it was pretty nice (:
but this day sorta sucked... got sorta pwned on chinese midterm.. then just bunch of hours wasted doing nothing but playing video games, talking, and.. more video games? oh wells.. maybe that's why i feel so fail sometimes.
sigh. i hope i can be more useful.

nothing i ever do seems right.. maybe except Michele.. but i still. feel insecure.
i think i should revamp my blog again..
maybe if i have time.
sorry for such a dead blog guys... for those that still check &hearts
i hope my wishes come true...
maybe someday.. i could be a good kid.. oh wells..
finally found out that Kevin is leaving for Princeton (in August) today... gosh i shoulda checked my email more..
i hope i can be a better person ..better kid ..and a better fwend to you guys...
maybe someday i will.. maybe someday i won't..
only time can tell.